This weekends adventure was a bust.
“In-hospital” update:
To be frankly honest, I am not adjusting well to Reno at all! This week was a catastrophe, but I am beginning to understand where my stress and frustration levels are coming from. I have been trying to make a conscious decision to recognize my triggers but to keep an open mind and be patient with my environment, my new coworkers, and a department setting that is new to me. As hard as I have tried, I am failing miserably and my stress continues to be uncontrollable.
So, what exactly is going on? I don’t even know where to start, but the most basic answer is that there is no leadership and the little staff they have, they are all intensely high-strung and very impatient… which makes learning and being independent extremely difficult. It is a free-for-all in this department with no structure or organization and it is complete chaos every single day!
After learning the role of the room nurse (and only the room nurse), I was told it would probably be a good time to go ahead and do my buddy call this Saturday. There are more “roles” that I still need to learn (which is a whole new topic), but I was told that call is a “just run the room” situation. Saturday was a disaster. It’s a normal day with multiple Doctors and the insane chaos of every other day I have worked, except this time, you are running on 1 nurse and 1 tech… alone. I learned nothing on my call day because it was so chaotic, unorganized, and frustrating that my preceptor decided to divide and conquer… (super angry face emoji here)
And here I am… heading into week 3, feeling like I am about to drown in my own tears and anxiety. I have no energy to do anything outside of work and the best parts of travel nursing is a complete lie this time around. All I can do is take it day by day and hope that things get better or that I become strong enough to handle this place. 11 weeks left and this is definitely a count-it-down contract!
I’m gonna add a pic next just so that I have a small reminder of why I do this to myself…
